Wednesday, October 28, 2009
It's just another 24 more days to go. Strangely, I am not excited about it. I am not happy about it. It made me feel like -sigh-. You know, that 'sian' feeling? I'll soon be 20. For the whole of my 20 years, it feels like I've never done anything right.
What does being 20 mean? People would expect more out of you I guess.
I remember that on my 10th birthday, I was joyous. 9 turning 10.. It was a big deal to me at that time. It was like 'Wow!! I'm 10! It's a double digit.'
I'm turning 20 now. It just feels so bad.
For some reason, I seem to piss Mum off all the time.
Baby Boom Boom & I.. We can't seem to communicate at all for the past few days. Maybe, it's just me. I miss my Baby. I love her.
They both seem to know me like the back of their hand but I seem to know nothing about myself.
This sucks.
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People adjust to changing circumstances—even to wealth or a disability. So, wealth is like health: its utter absence breeds misery, but having it (or any circumstance we've been longing for) doesn't guarantee happiness. I would love to be a man of value because being a man of value is so much better than being a man of success.
Sometimes we act ourselves into a happier frame of mind. Manipulated into a smiling expression, people feel better; when they scowl, the whole world seems to scowl back. So put on a happy face. Talk as if you feel positive self-esteem, are optimistic, and are outgoing. Going through the motions can trigger the emotions. (Smile Smile Smile!!)
Being friends with those who care deeply about me can help me weather difficult times. Confiding is good for mind, soul and body. (I love you people)
I need to focus beyond the self. Reach out to those in need. Happiness increases helpfulness (those who feel good do good). But doing good also makes one feel good. (THERESA!! Stop being self-centered)
I should keep a gratitude journal. Pause each day to reflect on some positive aspect of my life (Health, Friends, Family, Education, Senses, Natural surroundings, and blah blah blah) experience heighten well-being.
Maybe, I should start to nurture my spiritual self. Do you know that for many people, faith provides a support community, a reason to focus beyond self, and a sense of purpose and hope. (Who to believe in huh?)
[Don't Know, Don't Care]
Growing old is mandatory;Growing up is optional
5:09 PM
