You might be wondering why most give in to those blackmail by willingness. Look at that face of hers! That meek gentle face of an angel covering the personality of a demon. If you remonstrated with her, she will turn that flower like countenance upon you and you will overcome with shame of slighting this self effacing creature's wish to please. You'll be guilt stricken! ( I'm not sure if I'm using the right word. Ang-Mor not good. PS ar! ) From an audience point of view, only the most heartless would mind submitting to the little inconvenience instead of hurting her.

Her tactics enabled her to tyrannize most people-with normally sensitive consciences. From the time I began to understand her I developed an elephant's hide whenever 'her feelings' were concerned, and refused to let her pressurize me. Although she was infuriated, she never said so. Don't expect me to have time to sympathize. Call me MEAN, HEARTLESS, SELF-FISH.. I don't care. Go on.. I wouldn't mind going the extra mile for people but she's just different. She's gone too far. People.. Are you visually impaired? She's not naive nor innocent. How naive or innocent can a 19yr old get? It's 2008! Not 1849.

Stop uttering blasphemies against life itself. If you haven't got independent willpower; in that atmosphere and you're still petrified by the Medusa presence which had dominated your whole life.. Then TOO BAD lor! That dull and obstinate tone of yours which holds the knowledge of defeat is such a turn-off.

Paper is more patient than man.
That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet

Visions so insane
Traveling unraveling through my brain
Cold when I am, denied it
Your light is ultraviolet
Ultraviolet

Out of a million she stands as one, the outstanding one. This is why, the 25 yr-old babe is so beautiful & special!

Half the time the world is ending. Everyone should be done pretending. Too much time is used for defending ourselves. Would it hurt to help defend others for a change? I think it would. So,shut the world away from here.

I'm super self-fish. You don't know ar? Then TOO-BAD LA!

The mistakes that we've once made will fade away someday. (Erm.. Not all the mistakes la) Some will slowly drift into the forgotten zone and some gets into the 'lost & found' counter. Some mistakes that we've made upgrades into 'THE WORLD OF DISTRESS'. LOL! Pi-Por-Pi-Por..

Some people build you up then tear you down. Why are you allowing people to build you up when you should be the one doing it? It's YOUR life. Fuck-Tard. I don't think that there is a need to ask for help unless if you're desperately dying. As for the part on people tearing you down....
It's very normal la! Hahaha.. Humans are so emotional. There's good in everyone. It's just somewhere way deep down.

I'll never cry ( can't cry not that I don't want to ) and I'll never beg ( I've got Backbone!!! ). LOL!

This is what Li Fen texted me last night. It's SUPER sweet. She texted me at 3am. I had just a hard time trying to get to sleep last night. All thanks to her, I was back at square one. Haha!

"Circle means forever.. With no beginning and no end. Let our friendship be, not an endless line but a circle that will go on & on & on for a lifetime."

When I read this.. My first reaction was..
"Doesn't an endless line go on & on too? It's endless right? Whatever la! So sweet of her!"
These few months of waiting enveloped most in a state of gloom. Dreams withering and most trapped in agony. Anxiety spinning its web around people's thoughts and spreading to all corners of the heart.

Genius is 10% inspiration, 90% perspiration

Guess what I saw in the train yesterday? There was this Cosplay Challenge advert. People who are truly Su Ting's friend.. Please do encourage her to dress up as SailorMoon.

Starting work tomorrow. Super Sian!






Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
The Tang yuan we made a few days back.............

Christmas 2 days later! Yi-Pee!!!
Ohhhhh~~~ How I FUCKIN hate Christmas. I only love the fabulous food placed on the dining table.

You fell apart and they broke your heart. They will never ask you why. They just watch you die and the show goes on. You've made it this far but you're broken.

We don't need a reason to kill or to shoot. Fact is, everything we do has it's reason. We can kill to gain or shoot to maim. The golden goose is on the loose and it'll never go out of season. Pride still burns inside of you doesn't it?

This shell of bloody treason. Take your gun for it's a barrel of fun. The love of living death ain't gonna stop. See zombies walking around you everyday? But then, you may unknowingly be one of them too. I know I am. LOL!

For example, some people can never bear to part with their money. Don't they see that money will only be with them when they're on earth. I won't use the word alive cause most of us aren't living life alive. Do you get the message I'm trying to convey? It's okay if you don't cause... I don't know what I'm typing about. I think it's making no sense at all. LOL!

Whatever can be seen on earth won't be with you when you leave but things like experiences, principles etc etc will still stay by because, it's a part of you.

Killers breed from the demons seed. It's what she always says to me. You can't blame me for not letting you know what I enjoy doing and how I am. Cause, I really can't be bothered. It'll be such a waste of my time.

Everyday, most wake up to war again. Most do it for the glamour, the fortune. Is all that pain worth it? Sacrificing for stuff that aren't really there. Go for the war since that you think that it's blood of freedom's stain. Those hands that threaten doom is affecting everyone. Erm... I think so la.. Haha!

One day, we'll be oiling the jaws of the war machine and we'll feed it babies. Yi-Pee! I'll let creatures out into the dead silent night and show the unbelievers that.. that erm.. something something.. I don't know what's there to show. LOL! They'll howl and shatter the silence into pieces. The napalm screams of human flames and a prime time belsen feast. So exciting!!! Everyone is invited to this glamourous partey~!
People would cut their meat and lick the gravy. Self-Cannibalism is the 'IN' thing now. You mean.. You didn't know?!

The body bags and little rags of children torn would be in two and the jellied brains of those who remain will be bestowed with the name 'Fucktard'. Poke the brain with your finger. It it gets through, it just shows that it isn't fresh. Like fish ar! The madmen will play on words and make us all dance to their song. This is the tune of starving millions to make a better kind of gun. Afterall, it's all about wordplay.

We humans are always so ready to give. =)
Hurl insults, abuse here abit there abit.. Blah Blah blah la... I tell you la, hor, hee..

I'm just super bored.

I love being a les. I'm proud to be a LESBIAN!

Meeting Charis & Clara tomorrow. Merry X'mas to all Idiots hovering out there.



Met up with, Lun,Ver & Ting last night. Somewhat, I can feel that everyone of us are happy to see one another again. 'Cause, it was a super last minute thing for us to meet up.

I'm a free-man! Hu-ga sha-ga.

Gor-Gor-Geh. Wake up, wake up. Gor-Gor-Geh [ Monotonously ]

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After school today, Lifen, Joe, Abigail & I popped by Yvonne's work place just to surprise her. So nice of us right?! She got so shocked that she ran away ..
So, it was like LOL!

Yvonne SMSed me this
"SaSa ( Something something ) Thanks for coming to c me! Love you!"
I put something something because.. The nick they give me is so erm..........

Li Fen was really worried about me today. She said that she sensed that there's something wrong with me. Don't worry ar Li Fen! I'm ok.. Like seriously..

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Sometimes, it seriously is quite disappointing when you notice that inability you have.

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Anyone wants to go CNY clothes shopping with me? But this time round, it'll be a different one. I'm quitting on branded goods. No more Burberry, Timberland etc etc... And, can someone tell me what kinda clothes to get? Cause fat people like me usually have a hard time looking for suitable clothes.Hahahahaha!

You'e got the knack to vivify and you know what to turn me on. You make my slacks a little tight and you may unfasten them if you like. You have your own engaging style.

I don't want to lie to you but you're the perfect jumping off.
The Perfect Life = The Perfect Lie

I know that you never blamed me for what I did as I was only 14. The truth only came to light 2years later. The tears that rolled down your cheeks & that forceful smile you gave can never be forgotten. The way I felt when I saw your reaction.. I never meant to hurt you that bad. When I was rebellious and got cuffed up, you 'ditched' me so that I would grow strong. In the past, I hated you for wanting to place me into girl's home. But, you wanted to do that because I was getting out of hand. All the stuff I did left you feeling helpless and all the stuff you did were signs of me getting out of control. There's so much I want to say but I can't. It's not the part about me doing all the stupid stuff that's holding me back. It's the hurt that I've caused you. Especially, that matter.

People who knows me, knows that I'm never good with words.

I know how much it hurts when you look at me. Scars, tattoos, etc etc.. I'm not growing up according to planned. Am I?
To you, everything I do is a waste of time because you are against most of it. Sometimes, just sometimes.. It feels that I'm apart from the family. The stuff that you've said about me in the past is at the back of my head. I'll remember them though none of it is true. Be it positive or negetive ( Most of them are not so nice. LOL! ) I'll remember every single word you said. Nothing's going to change it I guess. Afterall, the past is there for a reason. At least, now I know that I'm someone who loves my family.

Somehow, I don't believe that this would make me real. I thought that it would be easy but no one believed me even though I meant all the things I said. My thoughts can get so tempting in this vacant place. Sometimes, it gets so crazy that nothing can save me. I don't know how it got so bad. But then, it's the only one thing that I have. It's tough to believe me and it'll never get easy. I guess that you knew it all along.


Joann Quek is my lawful HUSBAND & I am her lawful WIFE.
She plays the male role & I play the female role.
We have two kids.
One's named Fishy & the other named Sotongy. LOL!

Jo! I don't like you la! I like Wonder Woman!
That Wonderwoman is one hot babe! -BLUSH BLUSH BLUSH-











The song we all sang at Dorkas. Anyway, I don't know if the translations in this video is right. So, yea.. Whatever. haha

I'm here to make amendments to this entry. People are protesting to say that I should elaborate more about the Indo trip & the people there.. How I feel & etc etc.. Can I ask you guys something?

OEI OEI OEI!!! Is this my blog or your blog huh?! LOL

Hua Hua, Ms Jasmine, Ms Jelly, Nonny, Moon, Ms Paul-li-ni, Rach-choo, Li Fen, Yvonney, MK, Nat, Joe, Ivan, Li Jie, Mr Susu, Andy, people from Cita-Hati & people from Dorkas... All of you were great!

I should wear my heart on my sleeve eh?!
'Cause, she said: Stop acting strong.. It doesn't work that way. Stop saying that you're ok when you're not. Stop lying people who cares for you. Stop saying - Yeah. I'm a-ok! Since when have I not been ok?

Anyway, the orphange wasn't as bad as the way people said that it would be. When I went there, I felt that it was alright. In Dorkas.. There were Flies flying everywhere, Maggots bouncing, Roaches crawling, Animals Pooping, Millons of dust bunnies hopping etc etc.. I seriously do feel that it's alright la! Maybe I felt this way because I went there with a 'come what may' attitude. Oh yea! There's this SUPER DUPER important thing that I have to say. Moon ate 3 houseflies leh!

Life there is laid back and their time there is elastic. I've always hated teamwork & enjoyed working only with close friends or alone. Being there, there isn't really a choice & so.. I learnt to break out from my shell and befriend people. Most importantly, I learnt that teamwork can go a long way too.

I remember that before going Indonesia, I felt that I would be bored to death cause Yue Hua was all I had. I knew Nonny & Andy but we hardly talked in school. So yea... Then before heading off for Indonesia, I told Ah Ting this..

" I die also won't become that Moon's friend ar! She so AH LIAN.. We sure cannot one.. If I become her good friend, I TOK my head give you be toilet bowl."

In the end.....
Moon & I became really good friends. LOL! Though I'm not the youngest in the girls group, I feel that Li Fen, Yvonney, Moon & Hua Hua very 'teng' me. Maybe it's because I'm the shortest. Whenever we take group pictures, the tall ones would stand in front and the even taller ones, at the back. LOL!

There was once when Rach-Choo, Moon & I were cleaning up this table. There were maggots, flies & roaches on it. Then, I told Rach that we should use Baygon and create a 'flame-thrower'. Moon screamed and ran away when she saw the roaches. So, Rach & I cleaned it up. When suddenly, this roach ran out from this hole & 'chiong' towards my direction! I screamed and ran towards Moon's direction. LOL! Everyone laughed at us. I thought that it was some centipede la! A lot of stuff was done during the 10 days. It was a HELL-LOT of FUN!

On the very very last day at Dorkas.. We had this fare-well thing. Everyone cried. I tried to get myself to cry but I just couldn't do it. Haha! Maybe, I've forgotten how to cry. There was this day when I felt really really down. Then Mr Susu said that crying is the best way for humans to heal. So, he encouraged me to find a way for myself to learn how to cry again. So nice right?! Then, he kept telling people that I'm his living testimony.

Ah ah~~ I miss miss miss everything! I want to go back to visit soon. Moon Moon say next year go back. Ah Ting wants to come & see too! YI-PEE!!!! I overhead the teachers saying that there might be 2 trips next year. I can't remember if I overheard it or I asked the teachers about it. Ms Paul-li-ni will not be in charge next year. It's Ms Jas.

CHER CHER! AH LEONG WANTS TO GO EVERY YEAR!
LOL!

* Pardon my English

Job interview tomorrow! Hope that I'll get the job. Anyway, I'm only getting a part time job. Lazy to work full-time. I have my reasons for getting a part-time job ok. You guys may get to see me online lesser if I do get hired for that job. I know that all of you are happy about it. LOL! See yea peps!

Hey Baby! Hay Baby! HEY!
BYE PEPS! Don't miss me ok? hahaha!

Away for ten days and I hope that the rashes wouldn't get in my way. Heat rash! Should be la. But then, I bathe twice & sometimes thrice a day leh. Why? WHY? WHY????!!!!!!

I'll miss that 25 year-old beauty queen. Sheesh.. Can't annoy her for 10 days. She doesn't read my blog so....
I'LL MISS YOU BABE!
I'LL MISS YOU BEAUTIFUL!

Things to do when I return.
1) Sleep-overs with Charis & Clara
2) Annoy Pris till she dies
3) Reunite with Ver,Lun & Ting
4) Smack my parents & bro

P.S: Don't MISS me peps! MUACK! MUACK! MUACK!
Intense feeling too often obscures the truth

Signing off
The SUPER DUPER NICE, LOVABLE, CUTE Theresa/Brayden Leong Wei Zhen

- Rolling on floor laughing my fucking arse off -

The-Re's SHIT

Big LuLu Ting Ting

Miss XY [ Mentor Mentor!! ]
Chye Xiang Lao Shi =)
Miss Sally
Asmine
Florence
Jack
Jo
Lala
Michelle
Shirlyna
Yvette

Fen
Rebeccaa

Adeline
Chia PoP
Elephont
Joanne
Nicole
Shin Yee
Yan Ping
Yi Lin

Christopher [Bro]
Amulet
Ivan
Jaz
Miss K
Natasha
Kiwi
Yan Zhen
Sophia

You might be wondering why most give in to those blackmail by willingness. Look at that face of hers! That meek gentle face of an angel covering the personality of a demon. If you remonstrated with her, she will turn that flower like countenance upon you and you will overcome with shame of slighting this self effacing creature's wish to please. You'll be guilt stricken! ( I'm not sure if I'm using the right word. Ang-Mor not good. PS ar! ) From an audience point of view, only the most heartless would mind submitting to the little inconvenience instead of hurting her.

Her tactics enabled her to tyrannize most people-with normally sensitive consciences. From the time I began to understand her I developed an elephant's hide whenever 'her feelings' were concerned, and refused to let her pressurize me. Although she was infuriated, she never said so. Don't expect me to have time to sympathize. Call me MEAN, HEARTLESS, SELF-FISH.. I don't care. Go on.. I wouldn't mind going the extra mile for people but she's just different. She's gone too far. People.. Are you visually impaired? She's not naive nor innocent. How naive or innocent can a 19yr old get? It's 2008! Not 1849.

Stop uttering blasphemies against life itself. If you haven't got independent willpower; in that atmosphere and you're still petrified by the Medusa presence which had dominated your whole life.. Then TOO BAD lor! That dull and obstinate tone of yours which holds the knowledge of defeat is such a turn-off.

Paper is more patient than man.
That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet

Visions so insane
Traveling unraveling through my brain
Cold when I am, denied it
Your light is ultraviolet
Ultraviolet

Out of a million she stands as one, the outstanding one. This is why, the 25 yr-old babe is so beautiful & special!

Half the time the world is ending. Everyone should be done pretending. Too much time is used for defending ourselves. Would it hurt to help defend others for a change? I think it would. So,shut the world away from here.

I'm super self-fish. You don't know ar? Then TOO-BAD LA!

The mistakes that we've once made will fade away someday. (Erm.. Not all the mistakes la) Some will slowly drift into the forgotten zone and some gets into the 'lost & found' counter. Some mistakes that we've made upgrades into 'THE WORLD OF DISTRESS'. LOL! Pi-Por-Pi-Por..

Some people build you up then tear you down. Why are you allowing people to build you up when you should be the one doing it? It's YOUR life. Fuck-Tard. I don't think that there is a need to ask for help unless if you're desperately dying. As for the part on people tearing you down....
It's very normal la! Hahaha.. Humans are so emotional. There's good in everyone. It's just somewhere way deep down.

I'll never cry ( can't cry not that I don't want to ) and I'll never beg ( I've got Backbone!!! ). LOL!

This is what Li Fen texted me last night. It's SUPER sweet. She texted me at 3am. I had just a hard time trying to get to sleep last night. All thanks to her, I was back at square one. Haha!

"Circle means forever.. With no beginning and no end. Let our friendship be, not an endless line but a circle that will go on & on & on for a lifetime."

When I read this.. My first reaction was..
"Doesn't an endless line go on & on too? It's endless right? Whatever la! So sweet of her!"
These few months of waiting enveloped most in a state of gloom. Dreams withering and most trapped in agony. Anxiety spinning its web around people's thoughts and spreading to all corners of the heart.

Genius is 10% inspiration, 90% perspiration

Guess what I saw in the train yesterday? There was this Cosplay Challenge advert. People who are truly Su Ting's friend.. Please do encourage her to dress up as SailorMoon.

Starting work tomorrow. Super Sian!






Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
The Tang yuan we made a few days back.............

Christmas 2 days later! Yi-Pee!!!
Ohhhhh~~~ How I FUCKIN hate Christmas. I only love the fabulous food placed on the dining table.

You fell apart and they broke your heart. They will never ask you why. They just watch you die and the show goes on. You've made it this far but you're broken.

We don't need a reason to kill or to shoot. Fact is, everything we do has it's reason. We can kill to gain or shoot to maim. The golden goose is on the loose and it'll never go out of season. Pride still burns inside of you doesn't it?

This shell of bloody treason. Take your gun for it's a barrel of fun. The love of living death ain't gonna stop. See zombies walking around you everyday? But then, you may unknowingly be one of them too. I know I am. LOL!

For example, some people can never bear to part with their money. Don't they see that money will only be with them when they're on earth. I won't use the word alive cause most of us aren't living life alive. Do you get the message I'm trying to convey? It's okay if you don't cause... I don't know what I'm typing about. I think it's making no sense at all. LOL!

Whatever can be seen on earth won't be with you when you leave but things like experiences, principles etc etc will still stay by because, it's a part of you.

Killers breed from the demons seed. It's what she always says to me. You can't blame me for not letting you know what I enjoy doing and how I am. Cause, I really can't be bothered. It'll be such a waste of my time.

Everyday, most wake up to war again. Most do it for the glamour, the fortune. Is all that pain worth it? Sacrificing for stuff that aren't really there. Go for the war since that you think that it's blood of freedom's stain. Those hands that threaten doom is affecting everyone. Erm... I think so la.. Haha!

One day, we'll be oiling the jaws of the war machine and we'll feed it babies. Yi-Pee! I'll let creatures out into the dead silent night and show the unbelievers that.. that erm.. something something.. I don't know what's there to show. LOL! They'll howl and shatter the silence into pieces. The napalm screams of human flames and a prime time belsen feast. So exciting!!! Everyone is invited to this glamourous partey~!
People would cut their meat and lick the gravy. Self-Cannibalism is the 'IN' thing now. You mean.. You didn't know?!

The body bags and little rags of children torn would be in two and the jellied brains of those who remain will be bestowed with the name 'Fucktard'. Poke the brain with your finger. It it gets through, it just shows that it isn't fresh. Like fish ar! The madmen will play on words and make us all dance to their song. This is the tune of starving millions to make a better kind of gun. Afterall, it's all about wordplay.

We humans are always so ready to give. =)
Hurl insults, abuse here abit there abit.. Blah Blah blah la... I tell you la, hor, hee..

I'm just super bored.

I love being a les. I'm proud to be a LESBIAN!

Meeting Charis & Clara tomorrow. Merry X'mas to all Idiots hovering out there.



Met up with, Lun,Ver & Ting last night. Somewhat, I can feel that everyone of us are happy to see one another again. 'Cause, it was a super last minute thing for us to meet up.

I'm a free-man! Hu-ga sha-ga.

Gor-Gor-Geh. Wake up, wake up. Gor-Gor-Geh [ Monotonously ]

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After school today, Lifen, Joe, Abigail & I popped by Yvonne's work place just to surprise her. So nice of us right?! She got so shocked that she ran away ..
So, it was like LOL!

Yvonne SMSed me this
"SaSa ( Something something ) Thanks for coming to c me! Love you!"
I put something something because.. The nick they give me is so erm..........

Li Fen was really worried about me today. She said that she sensed that there's something wrong with me. Don't worry ar Li Fen! I'm ok.. Like seriously..

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Sometimes, it seriously is quite disappointing when you notice that inability you have.

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Anyone wants to go CNY clothes shopping with me? But this time round, it'll be a different one. I'm quitting on branded goods. No more Burberry, Timberland etc etc... And, can someone tell me what kinda clothes to get? Cause fat people like me usually have a hard time looking for suitable clothes.Hahahahaha!

You'e got the knack to vivify and you know what to turn me on. You make my slacks a little tight and you may unfasten them if you like. You have your own engaging style.

I don't want to lie to you but you're the perfect jumping off.
The Perfect Life = The Perfect Lie

I know that you never blamed me for what I did as I was only 14. The truth only came to light 2years later. The tears that rolled down your cheeks & that forceful smile you gave can never be forgotten. The way I felt when I saw your reaction.. I never meant to hurt you that bad. When I was rebellious and got cuffed up, you 'ditched' me so that I would grow strong. In the past, I hated you for wanting to place me into girl's home. But, you wanted to do that because I was getting out of hand. All the stuff I did left you feeling helpless and all the stuff you did were signs of me getting out of control. There's so much I want to say but I can't. It's not the part about me doing all the stupid stuff that's holding me back. It's the hurt that I've caused you. Especially, that matter.

People who knows me, knows that I'm never good with words.

I know how much it hurts when you look at me. Scars, tattoos, etc etc.. I'm not growing up according to planned. Am I?
To you, everything I do is a waste of time because you are against most of it. Sometimes, just sometimes.. It feels that I'm apart from the family. The stuff that you've said about me in the past is at the back of my head. I'll remember them though none of it is true. Be it positive or negetive ( Most of them are not so nice. LOL! ) I'll remember every single word you said. Nothing's going to change it I guess. Afterall, the past is there for a reason. At least, now I know that I'm someone who loves my family.

Somehow, I don't believe that this would make me real. I thought that it would be easy but no one believed me even though I meant all the things I said. My thoughts can get so tempting in this vacant place. Sometimes, it gets so crazy that nothing can save me. I don't know how it got so bad. But then, it's the only one thing that I have. It's tough to believe me and it'll never get easy. I guess that you knew it all along.


Joann Quek is my lawful HUSBAND & I am her lawful WIFE.
She plays the male role & I play the female role.
We have two kids.
One's named Fishy & the other named Sotongy. LOL!

Jo! I don't like you la! I like Wonder Woman!
That Wonderwoman is one hot babe! -BLUSH BLUSH BLUSH-











The song we all sang at Dorkas. Anyway, I don't know if the translations in this video is right. So, yea.. Whatever. haha

I'm here to make amendments to this entry. People are protesting to say that I should elaborate more about the Indo trip & the people there.. How I feel & etc etc.. Can I ask you guys something?

OEI OEI OEI!!! Is this my blog or your blog huh?! LOL

Hua Hua, Ms Jasmine, Ms Jelly, Nonny, Moon, Ms Paul-li-ni, Rach-choo, Li Fen, Yvonney, MK, Nat, Joe, Ivan, Li Jie, Mr Susu, Andy, people from Cita-Hati & people from Dorkas... All of you were great!

I should wear my heart on my sleeve eh?!
'Cause, she said: Stop acting strong.. It doesn't work that way. Stop saying that you're ok when you're not. Stop lying people who cares for you. Stop saying - Yeah. I'm a-ok! Since when have I not been ok?

Anyway, the orphange wasn't as bad as the way people said that it would be. When I went there, I felt that it was alright. In Dorkas.. There were Flies flying everywhere, Maggots bouncing, Roaches crawling, Animals Pooping, Millons of dust bunnies hopping etc etc.. I seriously do feel that it's alright la! Maybe I felt this way because I went there with a 'come what may' attitude. Oh yea! There's this SUPER DUPER important thing that I have to say. Moon ate 3 houseflies leh!

Life there is laid back and their time there is elastic. I've always hated teamwork & enjoyed working only with close friends or alone. Being there, there isn't really a choice & so.. I learnt to break out from my shell and befriend people. Most importantly, I learnt that teamwork can go a long way too.

I remember that before going Indonesia, I felt that I would be bored to death cause Yue Hua was all I had. I knew Nonny & Andy but we hardly talked in school. So yea... Then before heading off for Indonesia, I told Ah Ting this..

" I die also won't become that Moon's friend ar! She so AH LIAN.. We sure cannot one.. If I become her good friend, I TOK my head give you be toilet bowl."

In the end.....
Moon & I became really good friends. LOL! Though I'm not the youngest in the girls group, I feel that Li Fen, Yvonney, Moon & Hua Hua very 'teng' me. Maybe it's because I'm the shortest. Whenever we take group pictures, the tall ones would stand in front and the even taller ones, at the back. LOL!

There was once when Rach-Choo, Moon & I were cleaning up this table. There were maggots, flies & roaches on it. Then, I told Rach that we should use Baygon and create a 'flame-thrower'. Moon screamed and ran away when she saw the roaches. So, Rach & I cleaned it up. When suddenly, this roach ran out from this hole & 'chiong' towards my direction! I screamed and ran towards Moon's direction. LOL! Everyone laughed at us. I thought that it was some centipede la! A lot of stuff was done during the 10 days. It was a HELL-LOT of FUN!

On the very very last day at Dorkas.. We had this fare-well thing. Everyone cried. I tried to get myself to cry but I just couldn't do it. Haha! Maybe, I've forgotten how to cry. There was this day when I felt really really down. Then Mr Susu said that crying is the best way for humans to heal. So, he encouraged me to find a way for myself to learn how to cry again. So nice right?! Then, he kept telling people that I'm his living testimony.

Ah ah~~ I miss miss miss everything! I want to go back to visit soon. Moon Moon say next year go back. Ah Ting wants to come & see too! YI-PEE!!!! I overhead the teachers saying that there might be 2 trips next year. I can't remember if I overheard it or I asked the teachers about it. Ms Paul-li-ni will not be in charge next year. It's Ms Jas.

CHER CHER! AH LEONG WANTS TO GO EVERY YEAR!
LOL!

* Pardon my English

Job interview tomorrow! Hope that I'll get the job. Anyway, I'm only getting a part time job. Lazy to work full-time. I have my reasons for getting a part-time job ok. You guys may get to see me online lesser if I do get hired for that job. I know that all of you are happy about it. LOL! See yea peps!

Hey Baby! Hay Baby! HEY!
BYE PEPS! Don't miss me ok? hahaha!

Away for ten days and I hope that the rashes wouldn't get in my way. Heat rash! Should be la. But then, I bathe twice & sometimes thrice a day leh. Why? WHY? WHY????!!!!!!

I'll miss that 25 year-old beauty queen. Sheesh.. Can't annoy her for 10 days. She doesn't read my blog so....
I'LL MISS YOU BABE!
I'LL MISS YOU BEAUTIFUL!

Things to do when I return.
1) Sleep-overs with Charis & Clara
2) Annoy Pris till she dies
3) Reunite with Ver,Lun & Ting
4) Smack my parents & bro

P.S: Don't MISS me peps! MUACK! MUACK! MUACK!
Intense feeling too often obscures the truth

Signing off
The SUPER DUPER NICE, LOVABLE, CUTE Theresa/Brayden Leong Wei Zhen

- Rolling on floor laughing my fucking arse off -