Wednesday, October 28, 2009
It's just another 24 more days to go. Strangely, I am not excited about it. I am not happy about it. It made me feel like -sigh-. You know, that 'sian' feeling? I'll soon be 20. For the whole of my 20 years, it feels like I've never done anything right.
What does being 20 mean? People would expect more out of you I guess.
I remember that on my 10th birthday, I was joyous. 9 turning 10.. It was a big deal to me at that time. It was like 'Wow!! I'm 10! It's a double digit.'
I'm turning 20 now. It just feels so bad.
For some reason, I seem to piss Mum off all the time.
Baby Boom Boom & I.. We can't seem to communicate at all for the past few days. Maybe, it's just me. I miss my Baby. I love her.
They both seem to know me like the back of their hand but I seem to know nothing about myself.
This sucks.
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People adjust to changing circumstances—even to wealth or a disability. So, wealth is like health: its utter absence breeds misery, but having it (or any circumstance we've been longing for) doesn't guarantee happiness. I would love to be a man of value because being a man of value is so much better than being a man of success.
Sometimes we act ourselves into a happier frame of mind. Manipulated into a smiling expression, people feel better; when they scowl, the whole world seems to scowl back. So put on a happy face. Talk as if you feel positive self-esteem, are optimistic, and are outgoing. Going through the motions can trigger the emotions. (Smile Smile Smile!!)
Being friends with those who care deeply about me can help me weather difficult times. Confiding is good for mind, soul and body. (I love you people)
I need to focus beyond the self. Reach out to those in need. Happiness increases helpfulness (those who feel good do good). But doing good also makes one feel good. (THERESA!! Stop being self-centered)
I should keep a gratitude journal. Pause each day to reflect on some positive aspect of my life (Health, Friends, Family, Education, Senses, Natural surroundings, and blah blah blah) experience heighten well-being.
Maybe, I should start to nurture my spiritual self. Do you know that for many people, faith provides a support community, a reason to focus beyond self, and a sense of purpose and hope. (Who to believe in huh?)
[Don't Know, Don't Care]
Growing old is mandatory;Growing up is optional
5:09 PM
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Yesterday night, I walked that path which we used to walk together nearly everyday.
I miss you guys lots.
I miss how we use to play & laugh together.
Ver, Lun & Ting.. When will the all of us have time together again?
[Don't Know, Don't Care]
Growing old is mandatory;Growing up is optional
10:45 PM
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Karaoke this Sun with Bah Zhang....Yippee!!!
I am going to sing to my hearts content this Sunday, all the biang biang Hokkien songs. Maybe can practice for next year's seventh month "Ge Tai". Good money leh! :P
Never hear Bah Zhang sing before. Wonder if she sings as well as she drums. We shall find out soon and update u folks. Hee.
[Don't Know, Don't Care]
Growing old is mandatory;Growing up is optional
7:57 PM
Friday, October 2, 2009
On the 30th of September, fever & stomach flu attacked me. ( Bing - Bing - Biang - Boom )
Cassandra took care of me for the whole day. I whined a lot when she wanted to place the ice - pack on me. When I was busy vomiting, she didn't complain how SMELLY it was. She stood by me to make sure that I was okay. She drove me to the clinic to get me to a doctor. Then, she made sure that I ate all my medicine and pat me to sleep. After I woke up, she drove me back home.
She had to work the next day & was really really really really (*10) tired but she still did all these for me. I whined a lot but she didn't blow her top. She would just pat-pat me.
After Cassandra sent me home, it was my Mummy's turn to take care of me. Daddy & Mummy were worried. I went to sleep together with Mummy. Mummy constantly checked my temperature for me. She even woke up at 2am just to put an Ice-Pack on my forehead. She must have been worried sick because it was 38.7.
Now I know that Cassandra & Mummy love me when I'm HAWT!!!!
' You this fat bb, yesterday dying make me scared like hell. Today recover abit only want go cca. Sigh. Silly dumb dumb leh you. ' - Cassasaurs
[Don't Know, Don't Care]
Growing old is mandatory;Growing up is optional
7:49 PM
